Noticing Hope

The last few weeks have been demanding for several reasons, and I have drawn on my mindfulness practice in conjunction with transpersonal psychotherapy to help me shine a light further into the darkness and learn more about how my attitude towards myself changes in times of stress and when I’m feeling under the weather. I notice how easily I fall into the habit of travelling down the well-trodden road of wanting things to be other than they are, and along this road, I lose sight of the saplings of hope and green that I have planted and tended to over the past few years.

“Self-compassion fades into the distance, and I find myself feeling confused and cut off from an inner warmth that I know will nurture and fuel my fire and heart.”

Rachel Podger

Self-compassion fades into the distance, and I find myself feeling confused and cut off from an inner warmth that I know will nurture and fuel my fire and heart. This morning, I found myself focusing on the fog and pushing away my hope for the sun making its way through the clouds to help brighten my day. As I breathed into this sense of wanting things to be different, I noticed a feeling of sadness emerge from my inner fog and with this, the clouds/thoughts began to move once more. My sense of heaviness and loss began to shift, and my heart and soul felt lighter. I am now able once more to hold a number of endings that I have experienced over the past couple of weeks with a sense of wonder and appreciation and allow myself to let go and accept that people come and go in my life, and I must remember to draw on the beauty that they have given me during this time; however long or short.