Past Decisions

Over a number of months, I have been confronted by my feelings around decisions I made that mean I do not have children of my own.My heart feels raw, and I am reminded of a time in my life when I made decisions from a place of fear rather than having the compassion, capacity, and wisdom to witness and contain my nervousness and transform it into excitement and hopefulness for the future and the unknown.

“My heart feels raw, and I am reminded of a time in my life when I made decisions from a place of fear.”

Rachel Podger

My inner work, facilitated by mindfulness and transpersonal psychotherapy, has illuminated my tendency to fall back into old ways of being, particularly around how I managed these life-changing moments and decisions.This awareness informs the way I give support to loved ones who are at similar points in their lives. I must let go and trust that by containing my own rawness and vulnerabilities, I will allow my love for them to be a true and clear guiding force. I must also trust that this will ultimately show me and them the way forward; one step and breath at a time.